Cheating and cheaters😜😱😳

This is an very sensitive topic I know, but I must touch it and put some of my thoughts. We are all scared of cheating, most of us, no matter if we are females or males.. no one wants to be the betraid side. I wonder what is a border line for cheating ? Is there are an trashold that we can say, until here it is ok, from here it is cheating. When the real cheating starts? And if you are in a partnership (marriage) -where are you not completed and quite happy, but just can’t call it off , and you look for sympathy and bit of attention- is that cheating at all? Is a dream about situation where you fleart with someone consider already a cheating? I’m lost…I have so many questions, and no answers really. Today I was chritisized that I’m latent chater 😜😍because I believe that need for love and thought about gentle evening even you are bonded with someone else, is a sign of cheating ! Love comes in different forms, and sometimes even we love person next to us, if that person doesn’t complete us, why not dreaming of situations where you feel completed. Nothing happened, but it makes you feel better. When teenagers we dream about actors, celebrities…and even as an adults we like some movie stars, and that is considered ok-since chances we will hook up with any celebrity is low. So that is not cheating … but thinking about let’s say man or woman next door, or boss, collegue in the office or man from a shopping mall that fought your special attention is prone to be seen as a first step in cheating 😱. We all know, that no matter how much we were in love in person next to us, eventually those feelings when we are irrational and have boost of hormones will go away , and than stays love, in form of respect. I don’t know what to think…im absolutely lost and confused. Society says what is acceptable, and what is not…but at the end, we have this one life, and we should comfort ourselves on the first place. Because, life is like an airplane, and when you are not quite happy, it’s like when the oxygen starts dropping down in aircraft, so who will you put the mask on first? To yourself, because if you don’t save and help yourself first, you can’t help person next to you…but does it mean you should go for everything you like, well, definitely not, but at least a dream about something else can be forgiven?! Or not 😳😍😝

Love

Silvija ❤️

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Valentine Day 2017 💕 💝

Every day deserves special attention…so I don’t want to say that Valentine should be different, but since I went out to a nice dinner, I really had a need to capture a moment of my Valentine outfit :-). How else to celebrate, if not in the love and heart! Heart is source of life, as well love is, or let’s say that special feeling of excitement, which is priceless :-). My question is how to maintain that feeling all the time, and never let it go??? How every dinner to be colored with the many shades of red Valentine??? But good thing, is that even when it ends, and you think it can never be again, it can…bcs every end is a start of something new, and that new is the one for that moment, and we should hang on that slinky thing bcs it will be old one day :-), and will be sign that the new flame is coming…

Happy Valentine 2017

Love

Silvija

One day at work!

I love my job…and I like people I am working with. Even some days can be stressful and busy, we can still find time for being a good team and cooperate. Sometimes, as the other day, we were trying to exercise and capture it…some of the movements, to break the routine of every day. I must say, we had a lot of laughs, and it was an nice funny day, that I enjoyed a lot ..I know I will be sad the day when I have to move on,and I will miss some people a lot, but also new opportunities will open a new friendships, experience and who knows…Let’s see soon :-)…I will surely keep writing my impressions .Please enjoy some of the poses…at least mine 🙂

Cheers

Silvija

Gone with the flame of time 💘

We are all aware that the time passes and we eventually regret for things we did do, or more for things we did not do. I always wonder where is the time gone? Constantly, I have feeling that the time pass so slowly, but than I turn and see that years are gone by, and I cannot even remember where , how, and most importantly why??? When I left Serbia, it was because I thought that I reached the roof, and I have no perspectives anymore. Life seemed rather, being limited to home, work, in my case hospital, child (I had just my son that time), and occasional coffee break with friends…All people were mostly unhappy, and than you want just go home, instead to listen all the same problems that you have as well…I remember that time, I was thinking, what is next?? retirement, and than to choose the place on cemetery  and wait for other life, that you don’t know it exists at all, but let’s hope. That is the time my anxiety started, fear that I will end my life not trying. So I left to my journey that still goes on, in hope that somewhere else I will find what I am searching for. And I do not even know exactly, what I am searching for? Is it love? Endless, unconditional one, like in a movies! Might be, if it exists at all…I did have a few years ago, feeling that I am living that love story of the life time, but now, when i think, and see how fast i forgot all good and bad…I know it was not a love, no, not the real one that people are talking about, it was rather a flame, words, that I enjoyed, but person was wrong. I am still looking for the Mr one, in the ocean of man I see everyday everywhere, some of them cough my special attention, enough to start conversation, but than I realize it is just another clue :-). Maybe, i am looking for a money??? Are money happiness? I believe in 21st century they are, bcs you need money for everything. And, feeling of having money makes you feel good, you can afford things…all those shiny, nice, fancy things, or travelling, or whatever you like, and at the end of the story it cost. Even medications cost…so if you are sick, and no money, you are in a trouble, many things will not be available, bcs of whatever it is, health insurance, simply you cannot have it. Am I looking for happiness? We all look for happiness, to have that simple, but rather complex feeling of being light, jumping inside of us, glowing and cannot explain why…just feeling good. I read so many quotes about happiness, that it is inside of us. But where is that secret place inside of us that hold happiness? is it heart? Mind? Body?? That feeling is so short lasting, that you can miss it in this everyday life…I feel happy every day with my kids, but I want that magical feeling of being completed to last for ever, not to be influenced by people, by anyone…I did manage for the few last months to be really happy, and feel like flying and being just alone with myself. Even in gray days, rainy and cold mornings, I will get up, and just smile, and feel good…But I know that the storm will come one day, and I do not know how to storage this positive feeling I have now so when the storm comes, I open my inside box of happiness and blow away the dark forces…I don’t want that to be gone with the flame of time, and I stay emotionally naked, in front the fire of time that will burn my personality and soul..

Love

Silvija

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