One day at work!

I love my job…and I like people I am working with. Even some days can be stressful and busy, we can still find time for being a good team and cooperate. Sometimes, as the other day, we were trying to exercise and capture it…some of the movements, to break the routine of every day. I must say, we had a lot of laughs, and it was an nice funny day, that I enjoyed a lot ..I know I will be sad the day when I have to move on,and I will miss some people a lot, but also new opportunities will open a new friendships, experience and who knows…Let’s see soon :-)…I will surely keep writing my impressions .Please enjoy some of the poses…at least mine 🙂

Cheers

Silvija

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Dare to be different:-)

Sometimes  there is no need for story, bcs few words can express more than a book… video is to add… I am not sure if I dare to be different or I just dare to be myself :-).. and it turns to be different!

Love

Silvija

Gone with the flame of time 💘

We are all aware that the time passes and we eventually regret for things we did do, or more for things we did not do. I always wonder where is the time gone? Constantly, I have feeling that the time pass so slowly, but than I turn and see that years are gone by, and I cannot even remember where , how, and most importantly why??? When I left Serbia, it was because I thought that I reached the roof, and I have no perspectives anymore. Life seemed rather, being limited to home, work, in my case hospital, child (I had just my son that time), and occasional coffee break with friends…All people were mostly unhappy, and than you want just go home, instead to listen all the same problems that you have as well…I remember that time, I was thinking, what is next?? retirement, and than to choose the place on cemetery  and wait for other life, that you don’t know it exists at all, but let’s hope. That is the time my anxiety started, fear that I will end my life not trying. So I left to my journey that still goes on, in hope that somewhere else I will find what I am searching for. And I do not even know exactly, what I am searching for? Is it love? Endless, unconditional one, like in a movies! Might be, if it exists at all…I did have a few years ago, feeling that I am living that love story of the life time, but now, when i think, and see how fast i forgot all good and bad…I know it was not a love, no, not the real one that people are talking about, it was rather a flame, words, that I enjoyed, but person was wrong. I am still looking for the Mr one, in the ocean of man I see everyday everywhere, some of them cough my special attention, enough to start conversation, but than I realize it is just another clue :-). Maybe, i am looking for a money??? Are money happiness? I believe in 21st century they are, bcs you need money for everything. And, feeling of having money makes you feel good, you can afford things…all those shiny, nice, fancy things, or travelling, or whatever you like, and at the end of the story it cost. Even medications cost…so if you are sick, and no money, you are in a trouble, many things will not be available, bcs of whatever it is, health insurance, simply you cannot have it. Am I looking for happiness? We all look for happiness, to have that simple, but rather complex feeling of being light, jumping inside of us, glowing and cannot explain why…just feeling good. I read so many quotes about happiness, that it is inside of us. But where is that secret place inside of us that hold happiness? is it heart? Mind? Body?? That feeling is so short lasting, that you can miss it in this everyday life…I feel happy every day with my kids, but I want that magical feeling of being completed to last for ever, not to be influenced by people, by anyone…I did manage for the few last months to be really happy, and feel like flying and being just alone with myself. Even in gray days, rainy and cold mornings, I will get up, and just smile, and feel good…But I know that the storm will come one day, and I do not know how to storage this positive feeling I have now so when the storm comes, I open my inside box of happiness and blow away the dark forces…I don’t want that to be gone with the flame of time, and I stay emotionally naked, in front the fire of time that will burn my personality and soul..

Love

Silvija

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Africa in my heart 💖💓

I had opportunity to visit Victoria Falls in Zimbabwe in Summer 2015. I remember when we arrived it was something totally different that I ever could imagine. Group of people were dancing at the airport, they were so smiley, and danced in the rhythm of the drums. Than we had a drive to Victoria Falls hotel, and that was just beautiful place. All were so kind and nice, and I just could not wait to see the Falls, that I heard so much about. Than we went for a walk finally, and while walking towards the Falls, firs i could hear the sound of water and than to see the fog of water drops…and yes, here you go…those glorious, huge mountains of water that are rolling down and making a spray of drops around. Many people taking pictures. I was just in haven of happiness.I think if I even saw just that I will be glad and appreciate, but trust me what came after that was just like seeing the king of queens in person :-). We had a nice dinner in the restaurant, while you can here the sound of Falls far away, and enjoy that. Animals were walking around, and all was just so different than anything before that. Day after, early in the morning, it was time for my first game drive. It was cold, and I was surprised, that after being so hot during the day, you wake up in such a cold weather…Yes, we saw a reasonable things, not too much, but for me was all just like a dream. We were so fortunate to see Luna Rainbow!!!! Victorian Falls are one of 3or 4 places in the world where you can see that, and we were more than lucky, since it was Full Moon two nights in a raw which is exception itself. I did not know that something like that exist at all…until I saw it :-)…Magnificent, is all I can say.After a few days there, it was time to take a trip to Muchenje resort in Botswana. Ahhhhhhh…I really cannot describe all of that. There we saw so many of buffaloes running, lions, many, many elephants, all but leopard. Than we took a drive back to Victorian Falls, and with a small plain we had an 1 and 30 min flight to Linkwasha resort in Zimbabwe… Really, something that is breathtaking. Best of best. I was scared of the flight though, and did not enjoy whole view since I spend half of trip freaking out, but after it was nice. Way we wre accommodated, was something that you cannot have in Ritz for sure. This was better…You have it all, and you can take a shower while elephants are walking around. We did walking Safari, and that was an experience that was worth effort :-)…trying to escape elephants, and learning so much about nature from or ranger Luis. Than we moved to Mana Pool resort in Zimbabwe, and had chance to experience the rivers and different kind of birds. Funny thing happened when we after one morning game came back to our tent, and there were baboon inside, that was jumping around, looking for a cookies:-).. It was an kind of tricky situation, since the elephants were walking close to tent too…and believe it or not, I learned in Africa that those huge Dumbo, that is an example of happiness and fun for kids, can be actually very dangerous!!!!! So it was an I will rather say funny risky and freaky situation :-)… I did some fishing, and managed to catch the big one I have a picture with. When the time came to go back, I did not want to leave, just wanted to stay there and enjoy the nature, animals, and freedom that you can see in Africa. Even people are poor, they are happy!!! I never saw so many kids smiling while whole village taking a bath in the Zambezi river. Were we happy, I do not know for the other part, but I was very happy. This was and will remain the trip of my lifetime. Unfortunately, somehow I lost a lot of pictures, and the person who took me to that trip is gone, so I cannot recover them but I will always have that Luna rainbow and carry Africa in my heart. I will go back this summer to Namibia, and I am sure will be beautiful, because Safari and Africa cannot go wrong no matter if you are in the wrong company :-)…even the wrong person next to you seems as a good one…

Love Africa 🙂

Silvija

Shopaholic and I like it :-)

It is the time of season when all is on sale! i wonder, if people are on sale too??? In the stores there are million people cowling around, fighting for the stuff, and all look so tired, but still happy. I love to shop! And I have expensive taste…though I cannot always get what I really want and like, at least I can look and think and plan for the moment when I get the opportunity, what I will buy first. So when, the right moment comes, I am not surprised, and cannot handle the temptation, but I will be ready, and I will storm in few favorite stores. First I will do Edward Anchore, followed by G Armani, and Cartier :-)…than I will get a coffee break in Dior, and than I will stop by Chanel. Let me speak frankly, Edward Anchore is a brand that is like Chanel, but I think better quality and not so expensive. Even looks and feels nicer than Chanel. Trust me, Chanel is not what it used to be anymore…textile is very hard and not so smooth, and the classy one can be found maybe in some vintage stores…Still they are kings for begs, and glasses…pearls are very fancy, but not worth money. Anyway, Chanel remains a still stop for a few small things… Amaizingly, I can go to the stores, and I do not have in mind a single sting that I really need, but than once I am there, i can find so many that I cannot live without :-)…How is that possible??? I do not know…I wonder, does that makes me shopaholic? Dreamer?? Or just a simple woman 🙂 as many others out there, just with bit more expensive taste and never enough money :-)… Well, I let you decide…in the mean time, I will have to face my fears and guess what, go shopping for what I can get, and plan for what I will get when the things are on place- I mean money …

Love you

Silvija

Lady with a tattos 😻

Today journey was really special one! First, train was late, started from 30 min up to 1hr and 15 min delay…I said to myself, ok…everything happens for a reason, so who knows why this delay is good. Than, finally, I manage to get to my seat, put my legs up on the front seat, take my iPad and start watching some of my movie collections…On the seat next to mine, I spotted an interesting girl. Long, blond hair, you know one of the really nice hairs, thick, and good quality, a bit messy, but nice, you can spot her from a distance. I like to look people first in the eyes, and than to make a loo on their hands. I do not know why, but I love hands, they tell so much about people, their life, work, care, sometimes, they can say more than eyes can say. We can train to make a look, but we cannot change the life marks on our hands. My Lady, had a black jumper, with long sleeves, longer than you will expect, so I could not spot immediate, but eventually i saw she has a lot of tattos on her both hands. Some were on the fingers, and than seemed that all hands are covered. Let me speak to you frankly, I am not a fan of tattos at all. I always wondered, why would you paint your body!!! Come on, if you want attention, and to be spotted there are other ways. Also, I always was scared of people with tatto, because, I will think they might be cruel one, with no feeling, no emotions, just pure animal instinct that is leading them. However, thanks to French train, that we had to leave and wait for 1  hr and 30 min extra in Lille to transfer to train to Brussels, I start speaking with this wonderful woman, my Lady. She was nice and very polite, and we just decided to go for a coffee and just go with the flow and try not to miss the last train :-). And than I discover the real beauty of the person sitting next to me. If I ever thought I had a hard life, I was really wrong! My life is walk in the park compared with her story. She almost did  not have a childhood as she says, had a mother that was very ill, and she took care at the age of 8 more about her mum than her mum looked after her. She was mums savior, and I can understand those words, when a child save mother…and we lose the border between the parent and child, and the relationship turns into something else. She lost her mother at the age of 16, and met her own father near age of 20 and lost him shortly after… During a tough time, she went from anorexia to many other look for myself stages…and she started to pain her own body, not to get attention, but to fight life and remind herself that life is going on that there is a light in life no matter what! That today and tomorrow are what matters, and past should stay behind, where it belongs. She showed me the story of her life on her hands, and that will stay in all time to come to remind her that she still standing. My Lady, in all terms of that word, is a painter, artistic soul…full of empathy and sympathy, understand people more than many others around, with Rolex on their hands, and diamond rings. Her heart is big, open, and amazingly, she will not recommend tattos to young kids, or maybe not to anyone…I learned that for her it was a light and source of going through the day by day, to manage through the tunnel named life. She thought me a big lesson of life, that even when one battle is lost, war still goes on, and we should fight and stand until the very end. Bravo my Lady for all the courage and for caring the burden of life on hands…you will make a perfect mother to your daughter one day.

Love

Silvija

Château (Castle) de la Poste 💒

Castles are such amazing places..can be quite good for getaway and enjoying few days off. This one, was similar to Miranda Castle experience I had this summer, but with a big difference – we could sleep over, enjoy nice dinner, nice morning after and have fun all together. Place dates from 1884, and is transformed into hotel in 2009. Forest is breathtaking, even it was cold, rainy and windy, still could not ruin the feeling of perfect place and good atmosphere. It remained me in Pride and Prejudice movie, when Elisabeth Bennet, walks early morning in the fields thinking and enjoying the cold weather, but she is kept warm in her heart by the love to Mr Darcy! Ahhhh, this is so classy, love in the air with many positive and negative happenings, small fights, tears, but with happy end…because Happy End is for the stories that are not finished yet. Some people, might arrive n company of Mr or Mrs Right so they can enjoy that perfection more…some might arrive alone and meet Mr Darcy 🙂 not even expecting it, and have the start of the new book …never knows, but Castle hides so many things…that are for me to know, and for you to find out 💒

Cheers

Silvija